today is april 8th @ 1:05 in the morning. I have an insane headache and my eyes have that really heavy tired feel. I've been searching on youtube for the last 3 hours on going natural.
I had no idea that there were soooo many videos out. kinda wish I saw some before I got these darn braids this past Sunday. I really didn't want them but I felt like if I didn't do it I would break down and perm it.
My last perm was in February. I was sorta fighting it but i decided to perm it because I had no choice (well not really) I was over-hyped to look fly with low maintenance for tnt carnival lol.
So I did a homemade "do" and I think I looked pretty darn cute if I "do" say so myself. So now that the mission was accomplished. I had a fabulous time and looked cute while partying non stop for 7days :-) I can move on!
So why am i even contemplating this? I'm not trying to be overly Afrocentric. I actually don't think there's anything "wrong" with a perm. I'm like whatever. you know how much stuff we (I) do in this world that's not the best for us (me). or that alters our appearance or conforms to society. That stuff is actually not my issue when it comes to my hair specifically.
I'm just freakin tired of being a slave to the perm! needing a darn touch up every 5-6 weeks otherwise you look a hot mess. the two textures just don't work. individual i think both are hot, together.. yeah not quite working.
So now I'm a back to contemplating going natural. I toyed with the idea a while back but never followed through. I keep pulling my hair back trying to see what I would look like with uhh no hair! I keep looking at guys (men) on the train wondering. what would I look like with his cut. WTF something just doesn't sound right about that. lol
I think a big reason why i think that I just might go through with it is because.
A. I recently chopped my hair into a super cute short cut (which by the way has grown out and is now an unbelievably boring bobish type thing and makes me wan to gag every time I look at it. But the point is that my hair isn't long by any stretch of the imagination.
B. "that" big time popstar from my moms native country stole my hairdresser lol. I'm not bitter. well maybe just a little. but my hair was always hooked and i used to sweat my stylist so hard, big her up to everyone every sec I got , so i really can't be mad at her now that she has blown up and has no time for the little peeps in flatbush or uh excuse me lefferts garden or more recently ditmas park :-)
So I'm an executive tryin to transition. yes I'm in an artsy field and can wear jeans and kicks to work everyday but still I have to look somewhat decent. so when I take these braids out next month; may 5th to be exact. I think I'm just gonna cut it!
I mean really. I haven't seen my natural hair since 10th or 11th grade. so a super short do may be my best bet. who knows what my "real" hair is gonna look like, but a super short cut, the only thing that can mess that up is an odd shape head or a big fat pimple. Hoping I don't have either!
Alright I'm going to bed now. so that I can be somewhat productive tomorrow. I'm fighting the urge to go see what's on Oprah- as i've only missed a half hour.
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